I started to realize I was living in a matrix like society full of systems of control that kept people busy and distracted chasing what isn't real. I was told I need to focus and pick a vocation that would pay well so that I could be happy and "live the dream". So I went to college and still had the same restless energy. I took up an interest in culinary arts, and switched schools. For the first time I actually felt that I was doing something that was part of me and not what I was supposed to do. Unfortunately the restless energy came back as the classes went from about the culinary arts to the production of food in terms of profit and business.
More recently after working towards the goal of becoming free of this world, I did a lot of soul searching and found who I call my true-self. I realized that the restless energy that was so eager to be somewhere else is the only part of me that matters. I found peace in creating, specifically visual Art and the only time the restless energy is quelled, is when I am drawing, painting, or designing.
I am speaking from my experience simply to inform others who are searching for something but they don't know what it is yet. Find yourself, don't let anyone tell you who you are, and don't let what you are determine the answer. Don't be afraid to be abnormal the norm is to live a meaningless life, create something, inspire others, dedicate your life to something, and above all care!
Here is a preview of some of the weapons I have been working on for the upcoming game "Strange Galaxy Black Lotus", original designs by Shawn O'Toole. http://yellowplasma.deviantart.com/
The experiences you went through in the first paragraph, i went through as well. I talked to myself or to imaginary people who i was sure were watching me. I also went through a cynical phase that needed to be overcome.
ReplyDeleteEverything else was you and what i saw was a beautiful thing just begging to come out. Dear god, it was an inspiring blog. You honestly can empathise with others in a similar situations and care what happens to them. Way to go! You are truely awesome!
Thanks, it's up to us to show them that the light they are searching for was within them the whole time.
DeleteWe cannot live our lives trying to be what others expect. Each person has a voice, they merely need to learn how to express themselves. Only by being who you are, can it truly be said you have lived.
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